You don’t know what you don’t know.

It never ceases to amaze me how contrary my spiritual walk is compared to a life lived by wordly standards. Everything around me tells me, to try and understand as much of the who, what, when, where, and how as possible and then adjust my life as best I can to come out on top….

I am the mountain

I am the mountain I have to get over. At my peak I have the most beautiful view of my surroundings. In my valleys I’m overwhelmed by my own thoughts. I’m overshadowed by the limitations I make for myself. I am the summit I fear I won’t reach but strive for anyway. I am the frigid wind…

Behind closed doors

Who are you behind closed doors? What’s the one thing that would destroy you if everyone found out? If someone went through the search history on your phone or laptop and posted it on your social media account would you lose “friends”? What makes us keep secrets or hide certain behaviors? Does it mean we…

Unplug

Solace. My favorite thing about any place I’ve stayed has always been the place where I could be alone. I greatly enjoy long periods of solitude, it enables me to sort out my feelings and think clearer. Eventually I will long to engage with others, but my need for sanctuary returns, quickly. I read somewhere…

Smooth as chocolate silk

I have had long hard days and sleepless nights and as crazy as it seems, all I needed was someone to put their arms around me and hold me until I felt strong enough to go on. Someone that loved me enough to bear the weight of my troubles as well as celebrate my good…

Faith of a child

Ever notice when adults give advice or look for the root of their current issues they go back to their childhood? Have you ever seen young children removed from a negligent or abusive parent and marvel at how they cry and fight to stay with someone authorities have deemed harmful to them?  Do you remember…

Help my unbelief

When you look up at the sky and see clouds dark and heavy with rain do you remember the sun is still there?

My purpose, my pain

I searched. God knows how I searched.  I wanted every breath I took to have meaning.  I wanted every minute to bring me closer to hearing the words “well done, my good and faithful servant”.  I wanted to do something to redeem me from my past failures. How I thought I was going to achieve…

In Between

“There’s some fibrous tissue in your left breast. I’m going to go ahead and order an ultrasound since there is a history of breast cancer in your immediate family.” This news comes after hearing that my endless devotion to carbs and weight gain had me kissing the border of diabetes. It was too much. I…