In the D.I.R.T.

A friend called me today and asked me to pray for her right at that moment. She is looking for a house and it’s a big decision for her and she wanted to be in God’s will. I stopped what I was doing and we went to God, thanking Him for the opportunity to seek…

The Path Unseen

Your word is a lamp to my feet and a light on my path. Psalms 119:105 I’d mulled over the only two options I could see for four days. My head wrestled with a dull but persistent ache and my stomach churned like it was working overtime for a butter factory. With only enough grant…

Shrink wrapped

It honestly seemed like a good idea at the time. Life kept hurting me in one way or another until I became desperate for some form of self-preservation. It started with a haze of hopelessness after yet another crushing disappointment. I was certain I had thought everything through covered my bases, and considered every reasonable…

Release

It wasn’t out there. It wasn’t in the lush green grass blanketing the field dotted with a beautiful array of wildflowers. It couldn’t be found in the warmth of the brilliant sun with a backdrop of a pristine blue sky. There was no sign of it in the towering oak tree giving respite to the…

Rejoicing in silence

Why haven’t I been here? When did I lose my voice? How did I convince myself that my positivity was too fragile to break through the resounding doom?  Truth is, it could all be so simple, but I always make it hard. I’ve had so many good or at least thoughtful things to share but…

If I die today

If I die today, I was a good mother, a great friend, and, from what I heard an awesome lover I was wonderful sister and a beautiful daughter, even though I had moments when I didn’t behave like I ought’ve. I did my best to be kind, faithful , and loving, in spite of dark…

The suffering of the faithful

Everyone doesn’t abide by the Golden rule: do unto others as you want done unto you. It seems, in fact, that people are more inclined to treat others as they’ve already been treated, which leaves those who do try to follow it  confused How can someone overlook you giving your best, your all, being committed…

Third eye blind

I am reaching for a part of myself that seems forever to be outside of my grasp. It seems achingly familiar, yet curiously foreign all at once. I am perplexed and drained from my fruitless efforts. I don’t honestly know what I am  reaching for. I simply awoke one day with a dull curiosity about myself…

Maybe…

Maybe I’m not meant to be a writer Maybe this blog was a bad idea maybe I’m not as good as need to be Maybe I pay to much attention to how I feel Maybe all my decisions are wrong Maybe I’m not as adult as I thought Maybe I’ll live to be one hundred Maybe…

Nightmares are dreams, too

All I could do was let out a disgusted sigh. I was once writing everyday and now the thought of even looking at my blog made my soul ache. What had happened? When I first realized writing was my thing I was excited. Creative ideas flowed from my mind like the mighty Mississippi river. But,…

There’s always another way

I have a friend that does exceedingly well with changes and disappointment, at least compared to me. He’s as calculating as the next guy, but what amazes me is that he doesn’t get attached to any outcome. He’ll be dealing with something that would have me in a tailspin and all he’ll remark is that…

Idling on empty

It’s not always a bad thing to be empty. I had a large container of coconut oil and when it was empty I removed the label and filled with my homemade shea butter lotion.  I was even able to take the pump from a empty shampoo bottle and add it to the lid of my…